Testimony by: Jacquelyn Porter
When I arrived at GriefShare my spirit was broken into pieces and life had very little meaning anymore. I’d lost someone who was woven into the fabric of my person. I was devastated. My mom’s life was taken in such a violent way; I’ll spare you any details. I was shocked, confused, angry, dazed, and broken hearted with very little faith. The year after her death, life was a blur. My entire being was lived in a “going through the motions” state. I couldn’t feel anything but pain. I thought from time to time “is this my destiny?”, I’m just a bunch of shattered pieces.
What do you do when the place upon which you’ve built your life is remove?!
Where do you go?!
Who do you turn to, when no person can fix your problem?!
I tried what most people try when they’re hurting: friends, family, alcohol, the club, “churchin”, and still I was worst off then before.
I had questions for the God my mother and I believed in and served. The faint breathe I had left in my spirit screamed at God “I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!” “WHERE WERE YOU?” “MEET ME HERE!” This broken place, confused place, dazed place, this place of little faith. God, please meet me HERE!
I decided to try GriefShare as a last effort to not lose my cool with life. Before I left home, I cried “God please meet me there”, I need to talk to you. I must admit I was surprised during my first meeting I felt the presence of God for the first time in many years. I had gotten lost in religion some years before that and lost His presence and I couldn’t find my way back. That night the presence of God wrapped Himself around me, told me that He loved me, that I belonged to Him, He hasn’t forsaken me, and He had a plan for my life. God told me “Do not be afraid, I will help you”. It reminded me of how I experienced Him when I first believed eighteen years ago. So, the Holy Spirit carried me through the program manual and weekly meetings. As time progressed, I noticed that God’s presence accompanied me home and onward.
GriefShare changed the GPS in life from being over taken by the thief who comes to steal, kill, and destroy to living a victorious life unto the Lord Jesus. God did meet me at GriefShare. Now, I’m living beyond the surface.
This program guides the willing heart into the presence of God through the scriptures with the power of the Holy Spirit in a language that the grieving heart can understand. Thank God for all the people who serve in His ministry of restoration.